Another day, another thought
Mood:
sad
Topic: my thoughts
I said something to myself and thought:
"Today, someone special today doesn't seem to be feeling well.
If I could do anything to make her feel better I'll do everything."
Wanna know why? Sometimes things are better felt than an answer through words.
Each time I see you that way makes we want to see your smiling face again.
I don't have the power of a God to, but I still have a heart and...
I hope you get better soon...
(Guys, am I finally going soft????)
Posted by ninezero000
at 7:40 AM JST
The Wanderer's Way
Topic: my thoughts
I travel alone on a long and dusty road.
I walk the path of a wanderer, always lost and never to be found. Walking tirelessly on the hard ground.
Wandering the endless road, I encounter desolate souls that dare stand against fate. I stand, watch and listen as a witness to what they do that only few may see as great.
I sat down to let myself rest. And I notice someone closing in from behind, stumbling along the way. The clumsy man finally gave up and sat right next to me and asked "Is this the right way?" I sighed and asked back "To where?" The man seemed to stare blankly ahead. "I thought somebody was with me, I tried to see but he left me along the way." I looked around and was puzzled by the man's words. "That man disappeared???" I asked. The man then stood up. Still staring blankly, he smiled. "Sorry, I thought you've noticed. But I'm actually blind." I stood up myself and looked a bit closely. And realized what he had meant. His eyes were unmoving, always looking straight. It was a shame, he had eyes as blue as the sky. I held on to the stranger's arm and asked "I think I' going your way. Want to join me?" I could see a faint smile form on his face. With nothing else to do, I led the way.
As we exchanged stories, I realized that he was abandoned as a child. Was disowned and set aside. He was raised by a man equally frustrated with him and kicked him out as he grew older. "By the way my name's Silas. Thanks for giving me a hand. I'm actually on the way to my job." I was puzzled on what kind of job he would be in for his 'situation.' As he talked more about his sad life, i could see tears form on the corners of his eyes. Silas worked because
We were nearing the place where he worked. It was a shoe factory of some sort. Silas looked at me and said one last thing before going in. "Even if the world was unkind, even if I lost my way, I somehow found a person kind enough to help." I turned my back and began to walk away. I slowly whispered into the wind, hoping my words would get to Silas. "You might not see the world, but your heart has given you better sight than your eyes..." I finally walked away.
The wanderer shall forever roam. Acting as a witness to the struggle of life. And the small triumphs of man overcoming their bleak destinies.
Posted by ninezero000
at 8:34 AM JST
someone special
Mood:
hug me
Topic: my thoughts
I am one, myself, alone and nothing more. I am a soul that wanders the world endlessly with no purpose. To others I may be deemed as something yet nothing at the same time. I am a lone wolf that hunts and lives for himself. That was what I thought I may be, until I found something... Someone that makes me think that I may actually something... Something of value...
Honestly, I met someone that was worth my time. Someone worth visiting and checking on from time to time. That person was someone I would hold dearly and close to my heart. That was a person that let me be who I really am, and never asked me to be someone I'm not.
She may be the first person that I cared about and nothing more. From me, she asked nothing more.
I thought I threw away my heart and buried it six feet under. Lying to myself that I would never use my it again because I had no more reasons of keeping it. You were there to help me find it, and put the pieces back together again.
To sum it all up, that was someone I can give my whole heart to without hiding anything else. Knowing you made me thankful the bullet never fired when I got the chance the first time. Life's full of second chances, maybe this is another one?
Posted by ninezero000
at 4:40 AM JST
Updated: Monday, 15 September 2008 5:19 AM JST
7 dead roses
Mood:
sad
Topic: my thoughts
I woke up with a thought that bothered me. Something I've kept to myself for the past few years.
I remembered 7 people. I realized falling for them was a bad idea.
1.) Never cared enough to do anything
2.) Always wanted more, and more
3.) A storm of fury and complaints
4.) Always wanted to be branded beside my name
5.) Pretended and never cared
6.) Expected so much but never satisfied
7.) Never content
All seven, never to be remebered. Came back in a flash. It reminded me why I'm always so cold and heartless.
7 reasons why I literally pulled up a gun to my face and pulled the trigger 
. I guess fate seriously saved my my brain that time from being blown to bits. I wonder what comes next...
Posted by ninezero000
at 4:44 AM JST
Updated: Tuesday, 23 September 2008 6:59 AM JST
